Cannot be delayed..

My application for Canada need not be delayed anymore. I have to make a move or else the chance will pass me by. I should not lose hope. Surely, God will help me on this if this is His will. I already encountered hardships on this. First, about money matters. I have to go out of my way and ask help. I have to swallow my pride even if it breaks my heart.

My heart is breaking right now. I want to cry. Am I pushing too much on this? Should I let it pass and wait for another time? What if I don't have another time? What if the opportunity would close on me. Where will i be? I will be stuck here in my present work with minimum salary. Just thinking about it depresses me. sigh!

I don't know. I don't know what to do anymore. My heart is aching too much. I can't bear it. I am still hoping for a wonderful thing to happen in my life. I just hope so..